Overwhelmed

As the holidays have been approaching I have been thinking of all that needs to be done. I'm what some may call a control freak with a touch of obsessive complusive. I find these to be good qualities, but understand how it can overwhelm some. Some, mostly being Dan. I totally understand where he is coming from, when things fall short of perfection, he is the one that usually bears the brunt of my frustration.

Let's back up for a moment, this season started with Thanksgiving. MaryBeth, my mother-in-law, was all set to do it at her house. I volunteered to have it here, so it would be easier on my kids, and let's be honest, so that I could be in control. I promised myself that this year was going to be different. MaryBeth and I decided we were going to keep it casual.

The weekend started off great, Dan came home early form work on Wednesday, I got all of my early baking done,and I had written out my schedule for the following day. Yes, I wrote out a schedule, and yes, that is me being relaxed. Thanksgiving could not have gone better. The food was good, we used paper plates, the kids played and I think everyone had a good time. I didn't lose my cool and was fine with things not being perfect. Real growth!

Now, originally in my mind the rest of the weekend we would just lounge around. Ha! There is apparently something chemically wrong with Dan and I and we are incapable of just relaxing for a weekend. We saw a washer and drier on sale that was a great deal. We have needed new ones for a while, so we decided let's just do it. We began our plans for the early morning treck to Home Depot. As we began talking we decided to paint the laundry room, and build a counter for folding, why not tile the floor while we are in there, and I hate the cabinets, so lets just paint those, too! Seriously? You would think that we would stop there, WRONG! Since we're doing this why not tile and paint the kids bathroom right next door? Great idea. So, that was our weekend a giant remdeling project that we are knee deep in at the moment. It should be great.

Oh, and the cherry on top the kids have all had colds and have cried for four days running.

I realized that Dan and I have not spent any time just the two of us for months. We've had MaryBeth and Anna babaysitting a ton, but never for quality time for just us. It's been weddings, parties, buying washers and driers.

So, this all brings us to overwhelmed. I'm overwhelmed with kids, projects, weight loss, you name it. But, mostly, I realize that I just miss my husband. On the verge of tears last night I realized, that just a couple hours of alone timewith hima nd I would feel so much better. My birthday is next week, I'm hoping that on that night I will be able to get some time with my best friend.

Now, on to Christmas... in Wisconsin... no stress!